That's the best write up of your setup so far, clear and covering the important R stuff.
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"Giles would feel hurt and sad sleeping in a separate bed from his wife" ---> am I allowed to think this seems EXCEEDINGLY unreasonable to me in a completely egalitarian dynamic (provided the bed was, in that context, not a mat in a cell)? And I'm not saying this as a d type. I think it'd feel unreasonable for me to react like this to my partner requesting this too.
Thanks for sharing, Giles. We brought in femdom for much the reasons you described and it had the much needed impact.. for a time. For a good long time. But as I mentioned in a recent post, Jenn needed a break as she is not Xena – she lacks that sadistic streak. She wants me more as a partner and less of a slave. I've never been happier than I have as a slave.
We're trying to figure out where things stand now. I'm trying to figure out if I want to trust it again. But baby steps.
I'm working from home today. I was on a nice long status meeting and the urge hit me to clean the kitchen as I usually would. It felt good but I was also scared of allowing myself the pleasure.
Jenn and I have a lot to figure out. I have a lot to figure out.
I must agree; this is your best write-up yet. It gets to the point. That kink is not there to cover up anything or to fix anything. You need to be who you are to get the most out of it.
The first time my Owner sent me to stand in the corner, I was upset and scared, thinking I had upset him. He explained later that it was because he just wanted to be alone, yet he knew where I was. I was being his obedient slave and obeyed him. Understanding that, it made sense.
My Owner was not much into the whips and chains version of M/s; he and I both liked the mental side of it. I obeyed to make him happy, and that's what made me happy.
That's the best write up of your setup so far, clear and covering the important R stuff.
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"Giles would feel hurt and sad sleeping in a separate bed from his wife" ---> am I allowed to think this seems EXCEEDINGLY unreasonable to me in a completely egalitarian dynamic (provided the bed was, in that context, not a mat in a cell)? And I'm not saying this as a d type. I think it'd feel unreasonable for me to react like this to my partner requesting this too.
You are, but what makes me a sub also makes me clingy.
Thanks for sharing, Giles. We brought in femdom for much the reasons you described and it had the much needed impact.. for a time. For a good long time. But as I mentioned in a recent post, Jenn needed a break as she is not Xena – she lacks that sadistic streak. She wants me more as a partner and less of a slave. I've never been happier than I have as a slave.
We're trying to figure out where things stand now. I'm trying to figure out if I want to trust it again. But baby steps.
I'm working from home today. I was on a nice long status meeting and the urge hit me to clean the kitchen as I usually would. It felt good but I was also scared of allowing myself the pleasure.
Jenn and I have a lot to figure out. I have a lot to figure out.
I must agree; this is your best write-up yet. It gets to the point. That kink is not there to cover up anything or to fix anything. You need to be who you are to get the most out of it.
The first time my Owner sent me to stand in the corner, I was upset and scared, thinking I had upset him. He explained later that it was because he just wanted to be alone, yet he knew where I was. I was being his obedient slave and obeyed him. Understanding that, it made sense.
My Owner was not much into the whips and chains version of M/s; he and I both liked the mental side of it. I obeyed to make him happy, and that's what made me happy.
Thank you for all your wonderful writing.